Whew!

So last night I went to kick my own ass for the second day in a row.  Well I really did.  I tried to pick up my pace from yesterday and that was successful.  I really kept up some speed and didn't let being a little uncomfortable get in my way.  I mean, it is going to be hard.  I can't expect for it to be super easy.  If I just walked at a slow pace it doesn't hurt anyone other than me.  So I pioneered through the humidity (which was OOC) and bugs that like to fly around where there is a lot of grass and I successfully dodged all 23482 kids that were playing there.  I even did an extra lap for good measure.  More of a cool down lap, really.  I knew that since I had pushed myself for the mile that taking an easy lap would be good.  I mean, its a bonus.  On top of that Courtney and I had brought our soccer ball to kick around for fun when we finished.  Boy, did that kill me worse than the walk did.  I was running after the ball and really freaking moving.  After the walk, all this running really kicked my ass.  But in a good way.  I was glad I did it, but when I was going to leave I really thought I was going to puke.  I felt like I was going to pass out and was sweating like it was going out of style.  Despite feeling so bad, I was kind of proud of how hard I had pushed myself.  Also, I know that every time I do that I will be that much stronger.  I hate that I started doing this again in earnest in the summer, but whatever.  The fall will be here soon enough.  Cooler weather will be welcomed!  But right now, I am trying to get this second 10lbs off by August 10th and each day I really work hard I will be that much closer to that goal.  Starting my thirties (which I don't look forward to) at that point will be the biggest gift I could give myself.  And considering that I have 9.4 lbs to lose until then every time I go to do this I think that I am that more encouraged.  I have faith that I can accomplish my goal and I know I am going to work my ass off at getting there.  These attainable goals are really what keeps me going.  It is exciting to try to reach it.

Have a great Monday!