Saturday, July 7, 2012

Counting Calories, Hot Weather, Malaise

So I count calories.  I think it is what is helping me lose weight.  If I start thinking about how many calories I used to eat everyday, I am amazed I hadn't gained more than I already had.  Thinking that I would eat in one meal the same amount of calories I eat in an entire day (sometimes more).  Crazy.  I can't imagine doing that now.  It makes me crazy to think I used to think that eating fast food all the time is okay and just eating because I am bored, or sad, or happy isn't okay.  That there are other things that I can do other than just eat when I'm not hungry.

A second note, it is so hot.  Like today it is literally 100 degrees outside.  I can hardly believe it.  I can't remember the last time it was this hot.  I mean, its been hot before but this is crazy.  I want to start getting out and walking to get some extra exercise.  Luckily, next week its supposed to be in the 80s.  That is a very welcome relief.  I am losing at a pretty good rate - and I'm starting to see a difference so   I think if I add in some extra exercise then I should see a bigger loss.  But also, I would rather just do it to get some time outside and hopefully boost my energy a bit.

Malaise.  The definition is "a vague or unfocused feeling of mental uneasiness, lethargy, or discomfort".  That is what I have been feeling - I can't put my finger on it other than I feel like I lack direction in a bunch of different directions.  It is making me anxious and I just worry about what I am going to do next all the time.  Professionally, I am at a crossroads but I think I will figure it out.  This week my goal is to start really looking for something meaningful.  I have a general idea of what direction I want to go in, but I'm still trying to figure it out.  I feel like things can change.

Clearly, I'm in a funk.  But it hasn't effected my eating habits so I am just going to figure it out.  So yea.  


Stay cool.

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